Where should I go?

Days passed when I was taking a breathe.
I just gave a glance and it ran away.
Hey, girl, where would you go? Why were you so hurry?

I speed up to catch your pace, but my heart beat follows mine. One year, a lot of things have been changed, except me. I was locked in the beautiful school society and haven't even got involved. Now I am wandering. Anywhere, anytime.

Mr Tan from an accounting firm taught me a lesson, thoroughly, profoundly. He said 审计是一份神圣的职业。 If you don't have such kind of spirit, you will never do it well. As he said, I would feel guilty, if I didn't follow the pure audit career path.

Another bad news from another accounting firm is. They can offer me $2000, but will not help me apply EP, even SP can not, only WP. WP--------work permit!!!!!!!

Reality is reality. I am not super woman. I just wanna cry, for not supporting myself on my own, for not being stronger to burden all of the pressure, and for everything I want to do, but haven't realized yet.

The more days I stay in this island, the more pressure and sorrow I will encounter. It's not a battle with intelligence, but with my own spirit, my mood and my patience. I don't know how I can make it through and when I will recover. I'm really crazy, mad and sad.

Sometimes, I think it will be better if I go back home. At least, I know what direction I shall go. However, after careful thinking, I find I'm wrong. The reason why I thought it would be fine cuz 1. I would be with my family; 2.The so-called direction is what I have not tried yet. I do have hope cuz I don't know the result. I believe in the hope and it definitely will be good. So the result seems to be clear. No matter where I am, I still face the same problem, the same challenge and the same loneliness, even someone is now at my side.

Father asked me about the bottom line. I kept silent. Then he set for me. JUNE. It's JUNE.